Layers upon Layers

This afternoon I went through my clothing to weed out the unnecessary items to sell at a consignment shop. Like most people, I have both an extreme(definitely not needed) amount of clothing. First, I went through the shirts, then the jeans, then the skirts, then the tank tops, then the sweaters, then the sweatshirts, then the workout clothing, then the dresses, then the blouses, then the dress pants, then the work outfits, then the pajamas, and then the scarves...Do you get my point?

Clothing to me, comes as a way of expression, a means of protection, a provider of warmth and comfort, a sculptor, a blessing...but most importantly, at times it can be used as a cover, a cloak of invisibility-

if you will...

Today, I found my self reliving certain memories as I came across each article of clothing. I had planned to sell the items that brought upon memories I am less fond of -clothing I haven't used but insist on keeping. I've always clung to my clothing, I take the best care of it, launder each piece properly, and organize them neatly within my closet. My defense mechanism for past occurrences was to always hold onto and keep my belongings but, I've found that to surround myself with such baggage and deceit would only bring horrible repercussions. Day in and day out- my life would continuously be shrouded with reminders of the past...

I know, you may be thinking...she's so dramatic about clothing...

it's just something to cover your body...

get over it...

Well, on one hand you may be correct; clothing can be and act as it was meant to, but the troubles of this world can drastically change you...Although clothing may be what I grasp onto during hard times...

I really view it as a representation of the hurts and memories that I cannot let go of...my life seems to be masses of clothing...layers upon layers...each section- symbolic of events and issues that I've experienced...

I long to cast off the pieces to find the true figure hiding behind measly material...

God is quietly calling...

'Come to me, let go of everything you hold onto and live life to it's fullest...not behind the sleeves of sorrow...live beyond the layers and find me'